The late-night training room glowed cold. I entered, notebook in hand, just to tell Jackson to rest. The scene stopped me cold. Daisy, the new support, was on his lap, their hands over the keyboard. "Relax. With me here, Sierra won’t take your spot," Jackson’s voice was honey-sweet. She kissed his cheek. "You’re the best!" My phone dug into my palm, knuckles white. A text from my brother lit the screen: "Dream over, princess? I’m waiting at home." It stung, throwing me back to that day’s review. Our ninth straight loss. My first outburst, aimed at Daisy, the rookie support. I’d barely listed her mistakes when she teared up. Jackson stood, shielding her. "That harsh? The loss isn’t all on her." Stunned, I asked what he meant. Handing her a tissue, he stared coldly. "Your tactics are outdated." "When did you last play? That old championship won’t feed us now." "Clearly, this losing streak is your fault." Rage shook me. As my boyfriend—as a pro—he shouldn’t have crushed me publicly. Yet after, he sneaked to my office, apologizing. Alone, he turned sweet again. "She’s a rookie. Needs time. Didn’t mean to upset you." "Forgive me?" He tried to kiss my cheek. I turned away. "No. Go train." Now I see: his gentle words were just sick, careful lies. 1 I didn't close my eyes all night. When I bumped into Jackson in the hallway early the next morning, I treated him like air, not sparing him a single syllable. In just a few hours, a new round of the regular season would begin. Our record was a shameful nine-game losing streak. If we lost again today, our ticket to the playoffs would be completely torn up. Worse still, just yesterday, I had signed a performance guarantee agreement with the team manager. Jackson's words at the meeting had precisely hit the management's weak spot. Last year, our team was on top of the world, winning championships left and right. Jackson, with his flawless on-stage performance and handsome face, skyrocketed to become the most commercially valuable star player in the entire esports league. It was no exaggeration to say that half the tickets sold for offline matches were paid for by his fans. So, after his merciless public accusation against me yesterday, the management reacted immediately, dumping all the pressure squarely onto my shoulders. "If we keep losing like this, the sponsors are going to pull their funding!" the manager had roared, slamming his hand on the desk. I didn't hesitate for a second. I signed the agreement directly. If the team was eliminated, I would pack my bags and leave immediately, no questions asked. Ever since I was forced to retire three years ago due to severe hand injuries, I had poured my blood and soul into this team. Even if I was pushed to the edge of a cliff, I would bet all my pride on one last desperate fight. After finalizing the tactical deployment in the breakroom, I stood by the tunnel entrance, watching the players step onto that dazzling stage one by one. Jackson was the last in line. Before stepping onto the stage, he looked back and gave me an incredibly confident look, as if saying, "Leave everything to me." But I didn't return his look with a gentle smile, as I had done countless times before. A flash of surprise crossed his eyes, but the urgent arena announcements didn't give him time to linger. Halfway through the match, as I stared at the real-time first-person POV on the monitor, my heart sank lower and lower. Not only did Daisy completely ignore the stable macro strategy I had repeatedly emphasized in the pre-match meeting, but she also began to frequently make amateur mistakes. Every single one of her positional errors was frantically destroying the team's tempo, forcing her teammates into desperate situations. In the final, decisive team fight around the objective pit, she actually walked straight into the face of the enemy's core damage dealer and died—like a complete noob who didn't understand the game at all—completely destroying our only sliver of hope for a comeback. She did it on purpose. She was using a professional match to throw the game as revenge for my criticism yesterday. My fingertips trembled uncontrollably. Watching the players trudge back into the breakroom, the entire room descended into a deathly silence. "Oops, sorry Sierra, my hands were a bit cold that game," Daisy even playfully stuck her tongue out. Before I could explode, Jackson had already spoken up. "It's fine, you did your best. I think your initiation idea in that last fight was actually pretty good." I lifted my eyelids coldly, my gaze scraping across his face like a knife. "You can't see the problems with her mechanics?" "She was blatantly feeding the entire match! Did you all just treat this morning's tactical briefing as background noise?" I ignored them and turned directly to the substitute player sitting in the corner, trembling with nerves. "You're starting the next game. Daisy, you are permanently glued to the bench." Jackson's brows shot up, his face full of hostility. "On what grounds? I already said Daisy's playstyle is completely fine. Do you think I can't carry this team?" "Benching her like this is completely unfair to her." I found it utterly absurd and couldn't help but laugh coldly. "She treats a professional match like playing house, and you're talking to me about unfairness? Do either of you have even the slightest shred of esports integrity left in your brains?" "Shut up. This is the final decision of the coaching staff." Seeing my uncompromising, iron-clad stance, Daisy immediately panicked, tears falling thick and fast. "I know I was wrong, Sierra! Please give me one more chance! Next game, I swear I'll follow your shotcalling to the letter!" Jackson's heart broke for her. He quickly pulled her into his arms to comfort her. "Why are you crying? Didn't I promise you on stage just now that you'd play the whole series?" He looked up, and those eyes—which had once spoken countless vows to me—were now filled with cold hostility. "You insist on going against me today, is that it?" "Sierra, have you still not faced reality? You're long past being that legendary prodigy mid-laner. Waving the coaching staff's authority around like a weapon, do you really think you represent everyone?" I stared at him, feeling that the person in front of me was terrifyingly unfamiliar. We had walked together from eating instant noodles in the dampest, coldest basement to standing under the spotlight. I couldn't fathom how such cruel words could come out of his mouth. Seeing me stay silent, Jackson redirected his fire toward the team's head coach, Greg, who had been playing deaf and dumb on the sidelines. "Greg, you're the official head coach of this team. You tell me, did Daisy's performance really warrant being benched?" Greg was nothing but a figurehead collecting a paycheck; the real tactical core and training responsibilities of the team had always been on my shoulders. But now, his cloudy eyes darted between me and Jackson a couple of times before he broke into a sycophantic smile. "I think Jackson makes a very good point. Daisy, you keep playing. Adjust your mindset, and don't let us down!" A bucket of ice water poured straight over my head. As Daisy walked past me toward the tunnel, she deliberately lowered her voice and flashed me an incredibly malicious, provocative smile. "I fed on purpose. Too bad, isn't it? Jackson is just willing to protect me. Lose two more games, and you can pack your bags and get the hell out!" No one cared about my statue-like, rigid posture. My nails had long since dug deep into the soft flesh of my palms, drawing blood. The phone in my pocket vibrated frantically. My brother had called several times, but I hadn't answered a single one. 2 There were no miracles in this match. We were swept by our opponents, returning in devastating defeat. As soon as we returned to the training room, Jackson violently slammed his gear bag onto the desk, pointing at my nose and cursing, "What's the use of you staying up all night writing those trash analysis reports?! We'd be better off just playing however we want!" "With your garbage game understanding, it's no wonder your hands are ruined and you had to retire!" Those words were like a massive sledgehammer, smashing precisely into my spine. My eyes instantly welled up with tears. Seeing the tears in my eyes, his expression stiffened, a flash of remorse crossing his face. "I... I didn't mean it like that." I turned my head away, forcefully wiping the moisture from the corners of my eyes, my voice unimaginably hoarse. "You think I'm a useless piece of trash, don't you?" Jackson was instantly silenced, biting his lip hard and saying nothing. Back when this team couldn't even afford a decent computer, it was me who let him sit safely in the base to train. I was the one who wore high heels, running from company to company, talking until my throat bled and drinking until my stomach gave out just to secure our first sponsorship. When the championship honors that once belonged to me were wantonly mocked and trampled by others, I could casually pick them up, dust them off, and keep walking forward. In the past, whenever I came back to the base dead drunk from trying to secure sponsorships, it was Jackson who took care of me without a single word of complaint. He would carefully wipe my face with a warm towel, then hold me tightly with red-rimmed eyes. "Baby, just wait for me a little longer, okay?" "Once I lift that championship trophy, I want to see who in this scene still dares to look down on you!" Now, the display cabinet was so full of championship trophies that the light could barely pass through. But Jackson and I seemed to be separated by an uncrossable abyss; we could never go back to that cramped but warm basement. The humiliating ten-game losing streak completely detonated the internet. Major forums and social media platforms were flooded with angry curses and questions from fans. "What the hell is that new support doing? I could play better with my feet!" "Is the coaching staff's brain filled with sewer water? Tell Sierra to get out here and apologize!" "Jackson, do you even care about the money we spent on tickets?!" Team management immediately issued a gag order, strictly forbidding all starting players from checking online comments to prevent it from affecting their mindset for the upcoming relegation matches. Having struggled in the esports scene for so many years, I had long since developed an impenetrable heart. Back then, I had walked up to the altar to lift the trophy amidst a sky full of boos and insults. I scrolled through my phone screen expressionlessly, scanning the vicious remarks. However, my finger suddenly stopped. I saw a reply from Jackson's verified account, which had millions of followers, under a top comment. "Daisy is still a rookie. I hope everyone can give her a little time and tolerance to grow." "I've already won five championships. From my perspective, there are no problems with Daisy's mechanics. She is just strictly executing the tactics assigned to her by the coaching staff." The direction of public opinion instantly underwent a terrifying reversal. The spears originally aimed at Daisy all simultaneously changed direction, pointing entirely at me—the behind-the-scenes staff member who formulated the tactics. "Even our five-time champion says so! It looks like the players are really being dragged down by disgusting tactics! The person who let us down is Sierra!" "Did Sierra buy illegal bets and take a bribe? These tactics are literally just feeding the enemy!" "I actually cried sincerely for her when she retired due to her hand injury back then. Looking at it now, she doesn't deserve to touch this game at all! Kick this cancer out of the team!" The screen scrolled wildly with nothing but personal attacks against me. The language grew increasingly obscene, and some even started spreading rumors that the only way I got into the coaching staff was by spreading my legs for management. And amidst this foul atmosphere, the few posts that lacked aggression were actually shipping Jackson and Daisy. "Dominant Jungler x Wronged Rookie Support. The whole team is targeting the support girl, and only the captain is bearing all the pressure to protect her! Omg, what kind of god-tier plot is this, I'm going crazy shipping them!" "So when is that old witch Sierra going to get lost? I just want to see our Daisy get carried onto the podium by Jackson and lift the championship trophy together!" This malicious comment was actually liked by Jackson's personal account. This action was like pouring a ladle of water into a boiling vat of oil; the fans instantly went into a frenzy. I looked up at Jackson, who was sitting on the sofa. He was still looking down, casually scrolling through his phone screen. But from beginning to end, he hadn't typed a single word on his keyboard to defend me. Because of the tsunami of public opinion he had single-handedly caused, management didn't hesitate to push me out as the scapegoat. That afternoon, the club's official account published a red-headed document announcement, declaring that due to severe problems with my work attitude, I was immediately suspended for a month of reflection. They even forced me to record a deeply humiliating apology video. The entire fandom popped champagne to celebrate, as if clearing out a "cancer" like me would guarantee them a sweeping victory in the next match. But I knew better than anyone else that, given their current state, they couldn't possibly win. When I packed my things and walked out of the meeting room, exhausted, Jackson was leaning against the doorframe waiting for me. "If you hadn't been plotting behind my back to sell me off, I would have stood up and spoken for you today." I looked up in shock, only to receive a remarkably mocking, cold sneer in return. "Even now, are you still planning to play dumb? This time last year, I had just fought to win that season's grand championship for you. I had even bought a celebration gift and happily walked up to the meeting room door. And what happened? What did I hear?" 3 "I heard with my own ears that you guys were discussing taking advantage of the fact that my brand is at its most valuable right now to quickly list me and sell me to another club for cash! Because in your heart, you simply don't believe in my future career longevity!" "I did not!" I desperately wanted to explain, reaching out to grab his arm, only for him to swat my hand away violently in disgust. A sharp slap echoed in the hallway, and four bright red finger marks instantly bloomed on the back of my hand. Because the spot he struck was exactly where I had undergone surgery years ago, a piercing pain instantly surged through me. I couldn't help but gasp, curling my fingers in agony. "I'll get the team doctor!" Jackson clearly hadn't expected to hit me so hard, a flash of panic crossing his face. I endured the pain and stopped him, staring dead into his eyes and shaking my head. "I have never, in any meeting, proposed selling you. Jackson, why refuse to believe me?" Jackson violently shook off my hand, pulling a harsh, tragic smile that was uglier than crying. "That year, my grandmother was diagnosed with a severe illness and was burning through money every day in the ICU. I was desperately taking on those disgusting commercial endorsements like a dog while staying up late to maintain high-intensity training. I fought like hell to win, just because I was terrified of disappointing you." "Sierra, my greatest wish in this life was to become the foundation of your pride, to be your strongest backing. But as I stood outside that door, I realized that in your heart, I was nothing more than a commodity waiting to be priced and sold." I opened my mouth, wanting to carve open the truth of that year piece by piece to show him, but he no longer wanted to listen. Watching his resolute back as he turned away, I suddenly heard a distinct shattering sound in my chest. It was as if a glass castle I had painstakingly supported for years had finally, completely collapsed at this moment. I slumped weakly against the cold wall, sliding down to the floor. With a voice only I could hear, I softly called his name. "Jackson, I'm leaving." His footsteps paused for a mere half-second; he clearly thought I was just playing hard to get. "Let's break up." I had once naively believed that even if my hands were ruined and I could never touch that familiar keyboard again, at least I could stand in the shadows of the stage, using my brain to continue shining for this team. We won the championship last year, and I thought that glory could continue forever. But now I realized how ridiculously wrong I was. Perhaps, just as my parents had said when they tried to stop me back then, I simply didn't have the ability to control the situation. The scheming and infighting of these past few days had left me feeling unprecedentedly exhausted. It was a bone-deep weariness that even made me start to miss the home I had sworn I would rather die than step foot in again. Jackson whipped his head around, staring fixedly at me for a long time, before finally letting out an incredibly stiff, almost teeth-grittingly cold laugh. "Fine! Break up then! You think I care? There are plenty of younger, more sensible women lining up for me in this world!" "Sierra, you will absolutely regret your decision today. Don't blame me for not warning you." I looked at him without saying a word, only feeling a violent soreness rising from deep within my eye sockets. Even though I had been officially suspended, a few days later, Coach Greg still swallowed his pride and called me, practically begging on his hands and knees for me to return to the training room. "Those little brats are completely unmanageable! Without you there, we can't even schedule normal scrims. You need to come back and lay down the law!" I pushed open the door to the training room and scanned the area. Daisy's seat had been deliberately moved to be as close to Jackson as possible, their gaming chairs practically touching. Sensing my gaze, Daisy didn't show an ounce of guilt. Instead, she slipped her hand directly into Jackson's palm and, like a victor, proudly raised their tightly clasped hands to flaunt them at me. On their wrists glinted a pair of matching couples' bracelets. It was a style Jackson and I had eyed while shopping a few months ago. At the time, because the price was too exorbitant, we couldn't bear to buy them in order to save the team's budget. I didn't expect him to turn around and buy them for Daisy. I had originally been saving up money, planning to give him a surprise for his birthday this year. Looking at it now, I could save that money. "Long time no see, Sierra. How was your reflection at home these past few days?" Daisy's sickly-sweet voice couldn't hide its underlying malice. Jackson leaned back in his gaming chair, mocking me from the side. "Don't waste your breath. Someone as self-righteous as her could never recognize her own mistakes." I completely tuned out their words, pulled out my chair, and sat down, my voice hard and cold. "Didn't you say we were playing a scrim? Cut the crap and open the lobby." The first-string starting lineup and the second-string composed of substitutes began alternating practice games. Jackson forcefully demanded to be paired with Daisy. I didn't even bat an eyelid and let him do whatever he wanted. However, upon entering the game, Daisy's disastrous performance repeated itself. Her positioning was fragmented, she wasted her skills, and the slight advantages Jackson fought tooth and nail to secure in the early game were all thrown away by her repeatedly stupid feeding. In the final, crucial team fight, she even used her skills to push a low-health enemy assassin directly onto the face of our fragile marksman. Driven by the professional instinct of a tactical analyst, I hit the pause button and started flaming her without mercy. "If you really lack the talent for esports, then retire early and do something else. With your mechanics—which are so rotten they're festering—even if you went back to being a borderline cam girl, your viewers would find your gameplay offensive to the eyes. It was Greg who practically risked his life to recommend you to me, and combined with the fact that our former championship support chose to leave due to age and declining form, I made an exception and gave you this tryout opportunity." "Now open your eyes wide and look at the replay. Does your gameplay do justice to your teammates who stay up late every night reviewing VODs with you?!" Daisy's eyes turned red, and tears smashed onto the keyboard like broken beads. Jackson immediately took off his headset in heartache and pulled her into his arms. "She's just having an off day! At worst, we just don't play this game, okay? Why do you always have to target her alone!" My temples throbbed with anger. In this team, I treated every player with absolute fairness. Even Jackson, who was incredibly talented back then, had been scolded by me so badly after a match loss that he couldn't lift his head to eat for a whole day. That was when he was at his purest. In the middle of the night, he would sneak over to knock on my door, his eyes red-rimmed as he apologized to me: "Coach, let me load up the practice tool and show you again. I swear I will never make the same mistakes I made today twice." But now, this Jackson, whose eyes were filled only with a woman, roared at me. "Stop being an armchair general here! Since you think you know best, if you're so good, you play!" I slowly lowered my eyes, my gaze falling on the hand that bore a hideous scar from surgery. I let out a soft laugh. "Alright." "I'll play." 4 When my hand once again rested on that cold keyboard, for a fleeting moment, I felt as if I had traveled back in time to the golden age three years ago. The blinding spotlight pierced through the darkness of the arena like a sharp sword, shining straight onto my arm holding the trophy high. In that moment, the sky full of golden rain froze us into an eternal legend. Not having touched the game in years, the DPI of the mouse and the tactile feedback of the keys felt a bit unfamiliar. After entering the game, Jackson and Daisy, like rabid dogs, utilized their long-standing synergy to relentlessly target me in the mid-lane, killing me over and over again. They were taking revenge on me. I took a deep breath, my fingertips turning slightly white, my ears filled with Daisy's unrestrained mockery. "Oh my, did we make Sierra cry? What 'ancient era' championship veteran? I think it's purely because the region's skill level was so low back then, and she got lucky and picked up a championship. It's so watered down!" "With gameplay that gets slaughtered like a pig, what right do you have to sit in the coach's seat and lecture us? What a useless old auntie." Jackson shot me a contemptuous glance and threw down a casual remark: "Enough, just hit surrender. Don't waste everyone's time, it's pretty boring." "No need." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. The outside noise and the faint ache in my wrist were completely shut out at this moment. The few substitute players sitting next to me seemed to sense the shift in atmosphere as well. They dropped their spectator expressions and sat up straight. Under my precise shotcalling, they no longer fought isolated battles but acted like a seamless killing machine, slowly encroaching on the enemy's vision, steadily clawing back a massive gold deficit bit by bit. The final team fight that would decide the game broke out. Like a venomous snake lurking in the deep sea, I locked onto the fatal flaw Daisy exposed out of panic. Jackson was pinned down by our frontline, completely unable to peel. My fingers became a blur on the keyboard, successively bursting down the enemy's two core damage dealers. As the enemy base crystal shattered into brilliant fragments on the screen, I led the second-string team they looked down upon to secure this impossible victory. Jackson's eyes were nailed to the gray screen, unable to recover for a long time. As for the previously arrogant Daisy, she was now like a duck grabbed by the neck, her face pale, unable to utter half a word. I took off my headset, slowly stood up, and looked down at them condescendingly. "Three years ago, the ace position Jackson is sitting in right now was mine." "That championship trophy you guys use to show off was also won by my own hands." I casually tossed my staff ID badge onto the desk, my tone as calm as if I were discussing today's weather: "The first string's performance today was a literal pile of dog shit, and it makes me feel incredibly nauseous." "Today, all training volume for the first string is doubled. No one sleeps until it's finished!" That night, I directly knocked on the club owner's office door, voluntarily submitted my resignation letter, and prematurely terminated the performance guarantee agreement that had almost cost me half my life. The pot-bellied owner puffed on a cigar and put on a fake sigh. "Sierra, the board has seen the blood and sweat you've poured into the team over these years. But you have to understand our difficulties. In this circle, a star player who can sell sky-high merch and tickets is far more valuable than an excellent behind-the-scenes coach." Jackson could earn them tens of millions in profit, while I, a washed-up analyst with crippled hands, could not. Reality was just that cold and simple. I forced a smile and said nothing. I still remember back then, Jackson knocked on my door clutching a crumpled train ticket and a heart full of passion, his eyes shining with starlight, solemnly swearing to build a new esports dynasty with me. I promised him everything, and I fought like hell to deliver. But the original promises about dreams he made to me had long been thrown into the sewer like garbage. Jackson had changed, completely changed. In him, I could no longer find the stubborn boy who, in the pouring rain, soaked to the bone, still clung tightly to my legs, begging me with red eyes to give him a chance to try out. Returning to my dorm, I silently stuffed my clothes into my suitcase and booked an early morning flight for the next day. Right then, Daisy sent a message saying she wanted to talk to me alone before I left. I packed my last jacket and pushed the door open to walk out. In the dim light of the fire escape stairwell at the base, she stood with her head down, looking pitiful as she apologized to me. "Sierra, actually, I was just too jealous of how devoted Jackson was to you, so I deliberately messed around in the game to force you to leave quickly. But now that you're really leaving, I actually feel pretty bad about it in my heart." I quietly watched her clumsy acting, my tone completely flat. "How you walk your path in the future is your own business. Focus your mind on your mechanics, and don't treat the fans who support you like idiots." She kept her head down and didn't reply. I felt it was somewhat inexplicable, and was just about to turn and leave this damp, cold place. The moment I turned around, a highly malicious and violent shove suddenly came from behind! I didn't have time to react at all. I lost my center of gravity entirely and fell straight down the steep stairs like a broken ragdoll. My elbows and knees smashed heavily against the hard concrete steps, and a bone-shattering agony instantly swept through my whole body. Just as I was seeing stars, the corner of my eye caught Jackson rushing out from the corridor corner, looking panicked. He sprinted over, but he didn't even cast a single glance at me lying in a pool of blood. Instead, he bypassed me entirely and anxiously lunged toward Daisy, who was standing at the top of the stairs. "Daisy! You sprained your wrist?! Oh my god, tomorrow is the relegation match that decides our fate! If you get a chronic injury, your entire career will be ruined!" I lay sprawled on the cold concrete floor, staring blankly as Jackson carefully scooped up the completely unharmed Daisy into his arms and sprinted frantically toward the infirmary. I don't know how long I lay on the floor before I finally gritted my teeth, fought through the piercing pain, and used my trembling arms to prop myself against the wall, pulling myself up from the ground little by little. When I limped and clumsily hopped up to the stair landing like a comical clown, I saw Jackson returning, standing with a dark expression in front of my door. His gaze finally landed on my continuously bleeding lower leg. He looked at me coldly and asked, "Are you regretting it now?" I looked straight into his eyes, which held not a trace of warmth, and answered, enunciating every word. "I haven't done anything wrong, so I absolutely do not regret it." I pushed the door open, shutting the boy whose eyes used to be filled only with me out. I turned around, biting my lip hard, pretending that the tears in my eyes had never broken the dam. At the break of dawn, the plane pierced through the thick clouds and landed smoothly. My brother, Arthur, had canceled an extremely important transnational meeting to personally drive his flashy Maybach to pick me up at the airport. When he clearly saw the shocking patch of gauze on my leg, a look of absolute fury appeared on his usually cynical face. "Who did this? I'll break his legs!" "I accidentally tripped and fell." He gave me a deep look, sighed heavily, and his large palm reassuringly rubbed the top of my head. "You've suffered a lot out there." "I've already had someone investigate that mess on the internet. Don't worry, your brother will vent this anger for you." Seeing my surprised look, the corners of Arthur's mouth curled into a dangerous arc. "I just casually bought out that garbage club of yours entirely. Is our princess satisfied with this little welcome-home gift?" "That ungrateful bastard named Jackson or whatever, I'll have him listed and sold off like trash tomorrow, what do you think?"
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