I dated my idol for eight years. But when my parents pressured me to get married, he refused. "You're just a canary I keep, a lover who can't see the light of day. You think you deserve to marry me?" "But you are getting old. Go home and see if there's anyone suitable. Don't say I wasted your time later." I was in excruciating pain, holding back tears. I knew from the beginning that he only liked me because I looked 80% like his dead childhood sweetheart. But I still naively hoped he liked me at least a little bit. Now, the dream is over, and it's time for me to leave. Packing my things, I called my mom: "Mom, I agree to the blind date you arranged." 1 I was still showering in the bathroom. Liam suddenly pushed the door open, startling me. Before I could recover, he pressed me against the cool tiles and kissed me passionately. His model figure, god-like face that made millions of fans scream, and his unknown seductive techniques made me gradually fall from shock. From the shower area to the bathtub, and then to the bed. Suddenly, the abrupt ringtone of the phone cut through the romance in the bedroom. It rang and was hung up, rang and was hung up... I reached out to grab the phone before Liam, but he smashed it to the ground. The ringtone rang again. "Damn it, is there no end?" Liam completely lost interest. I quickly picked up the phone on the ground, full of apologies. "It's my mom calling. It might be urgent." He went into the bathroom unsatisfied. My mom called again to urge me to get married. I listened to her nagging absently and hung up. At this time, Liam came out of the bathroom. The anger just now was gone, replaced by a look of indifference. "Your mom urged you to get married?" "Yeah." "Do you want to get married?" My heart skipped a beat, and I wanted to test his reaction, "Yes." Liam sneered: "Indeed, you are getting old. Go home and see if there is anyone suitable. Don't say I wasted your time later." Actually, I had expected him to say that. But when I really heard it, I realized what kind of heart-wrenching pain it was. I twitched the corners of my mouth, lowered my head and held back my tears. However, knowing that his words hurt me, Liam didn't coax me. He went to the living room as if nothing had happened, leaving me alone to digest it. In fact, I have suffered such cold violence hundreds and thousands of times in these eight years. 2 Liam is a top idol with millions of fans, and I am his fan. At a fan meeting, like many fans, I was crazy about him offstage. I was suddenly hit by the goddess of luck and got the chance to interact with my idol on stage. At that time, a close contact, a simple hug. A few warm words of concern were enough to make me feel lightheaded. For the first time, I felt that human satisfaction and happiness were embodied. Later, after graduation, I interned in the art group of the crew. Liam happened to be the male lead of that drama. So I often found opportunities to get close to Liam, and he didn't seem to dislike me. Later, we added each other on WeChat. Back and forth, we gradually became lovers doing all intimate things. However, "lovers" was just what I thought. In Liam's eyes, I was more like a canary he kept, an underground lover who couldn't see the light of day. I fell deeper and deeper into this relationship, unable to extricate myself. Suddenly, I discovered that Liam had a dead childhood sweetheart. And I looked at least 80% like her. This relationship was unequal from the beginning. He was a high-and-mighty idol, and I was a fan who admired and was obsessed with him, humble to the dust. But I always thought he at least liked me. Unexpectedly, his little liking for me was also because of another woman. My friend asked me, why could I continue to maintain such a relationship with him for six years after discovering I was a substitute? Probably because I was greedy for money and lust. Being with Liam, except for a little dignity, I didn't seem to suffer any loss. He was good in bed, handsome, and gave me money to spend. However, a few days ago, I was still trying to figure out how to put off my parents and avoid their urging for marriage. At this moment, I suddenly felt tired. Maybe my mom was right. I'm old enough to plan for my future. Even if I don't get married, I can't continue to entangle endlessly like this. What's more, Liam will sooner or later meet a girl who looks more like his dead ex-girlfriend than me. Leaving proactively is better than waiting to be abandoned. This night, I wasn't sad for long. When Liam finished smoking and returned to the bedroom, I was already asleep. I woke up suddenly in the second half of the night, only to find Liam sleeping soundly with his long arms and legs wrapping around me. 3 After making up my mind, I called my mom back. I told her I would go home for the New Year, and she could arrange blind dates for me. However, leaving the city where I have struggled for nearly ten years is not a matter of a suitcase. What's more, I still have some financial connections with Liam. In fact, I haven't relied entirely on Liam these years. I have been drawing comics. Every time Liam saw me drawing, he would say: "Why do you work so hard to draw these? It's a waste of time." I was an art student and graduated from a top art college in China. I didn't want to give up what I liked. What's more, if I were with him, I would have no sense of security at all and would always worry about being abandoned. So I registered my own account and serialized my own comics. Even though my account had no popularity at first, I persisted. Later, my comics became popular, and I sold the copyright and earned more than one million. I told Liam excitedly, sharing my joy. I thought he would at least praise me a few words, but what I got was his light ridicule. "More than one million? Not even as expensive as the bag I gave you last month." "What are you tossing about? Didn't I give you an unlimited black card?" I was very disappointed, but I still tried to communicate with him. It wasn't about money, it was about the satisfaction of realizing self-worth. But he had absolutely no interest in listening to me: "Okay, continue drawing if you want, but don't take up our meeting time." In Liam's eyes, my value lies in being on call, accommodating him 100%, serving him, and serving him alone. When he is happy, he will accompany me and give me a few candies casually; when he is unhappy, I have to be responsible for making him happy. And when I am unhappy, I have to learn to digest it myself and cannot give him any attitude, otherwise I will get his more ruthless cold violence. Once he asked me to meet, but I was accompanying my best friend who had just broken up. He actually blacklisted me. No matter how I sent messages, called, and begged bitterly, he only let his assistant send me away and didn't say a word to me. It was not until three months later that he forgave me. Besides, when I was sick, I always saw the doctor alone. Once I even had a car accident. Although it wasn't very serious, I stayed in the hospital alone for a week. During the period, I called him, hoping he could come and see me. He said he was filming and couldn't come, and then hung up. In these eight years, I have asked myself countless times, does Liam really love me? Facts have proved that in his eyes, I am just a toy for his entertainment, a substitute for a dead lover. 4 During these eight years, I made a table for all the things Liam gave me and the money he spent. Those things are easy to deal with. Sell what can be sold, and then convert it into cash. The trouble is, a house he gave me, the housing price plummeted, and selling it would be a huge loss. But transferring it to him, he definitely wouldn't be happy. Thinking about it, I decided to sell it. Over the years, various copyright fees and income from basic comics, as well as the gold bars I have hoarded for several years, have increased a lot. Adding it all up is not only enough to pay back Liam's money, but there are also a few million left. Taking this money back to my hometown and spending it frugally is enough to lie flat. What's more, I don't plan to lie flat yet! Now I'm just waiting for the house to be sold so I can leave. The newly published comics exploded again in a few days. A company wanted to buy the film and television copyright. The other party offered a high price, and I soon expressed my willingness to cooperate. Then they made an appointment to meet me at a high-end private restaurant. Unexpectedly, the partner was my comic fan. Everyone chatted happily. After three rounds of drinking, I suddenly received a message from Liam. [Where?] I replied casually: [Outside, eating.] Unexpectedly, Liam replied instantly: [Eating? With a group of old men?] [Sue, I don't have time to control you usually, do you think I'm dead?] My heart skipped a beat, and I looked out the window. I recognized Liam in disguise at a glance. A windbreaker, a peaked cap, a black mask, 1.8-meter long legs, like a model figure in a pictorial. He stood in the corridor looking down at his phone. The moment he turned back, his eyes met mine through the glass window. Frowning slightly, his peach blossom eyes were full of anger. At this time, his agent came out of the private room and blocked his view. While chatting and laughing, Liam left with his agent. Although I wanted to break up, I don't know why I still habitually pleased him. Almost without thinking, I replied with an explanation. [They want to buy the film and television copyright of my comics and are discussing cooperation.] Liam: [I'll wait for you in the car. Come out in five minutes.] Even through the screen, I could feel his expression when he said this sentence, and the suffocating oppression. Am I his dog? Patiently, I replied: [Haven't finished talking yet, you go first!] Liam: [Sue, flirting with a group of old men, do you know how cheap you look?] Words like poison, like a cold knife stabbing into my heart. Every knife drew blood. I turned off the phone screen and buckled it on the table. The next second, the phone calls bombarded again. The partner probably saw my embarrassment and asked if I had something urgent, or we could meet next time. If it were before, I would really be so love-struck that I would leave everything to find him. But at this moment, an indescribable sense of shame swept over me. I shook my head and hung up the call: [It's okay, let's continue.] After saying that, I, who just said I wouldn't drink, poured a full glass: "Thank you for liking my comics. This is really important to me." 5 I slept until very late the next day. Just as I was about to go out to eat something, I received a call from the partner, saying sorry that they couldn't buy my film and television copyright. I asked for the reason in detail, but the other party faltered. Under repeated questioning, he told me that someone put pressure on their company, probably wanting to snatch my work. He also said that someone else might contact me soon to buy my work. Sure enough, in the afternoon, someone contacted me, and the offer was ten times higher than the original one, and they also bought out all copyrights of the work. But when I asked why they wanted to buy it out, the other party's attitude was very cold. Saying it was their boss's decision, and how to deal with it later was their business. After selling it, I would have no right to ask. This made me feel very strange. I was very happy that someone wanted to buy the copyright of the work, but that was my painstaking effort. No matter how much money, I wouldn't sell it like selling a child. So I refused. 6 "Brother Liam, Sister Sue rejected them." "What? Rejected?" Liam threw the magazine in his hand and frowned at his assistant, Zack. "Why not sell?" "Don't know, she didn't say." Zack said cautiously: "Could it be that Sister Sue discovered that you are the backer behind the scenes?" Liam's face darkened: "Really ungrateful." "Hung up on me yesterday, and hasn't come to apologize until now." "Do you think I treat her too well? That's why she's getting more and more presumptuous now!" Zack didn't know what to say. Saying Brother Liam treated Sister Sue badly, she was his only woman for so many years, and he was generous with money. Saying good, but he seemed not to understand what Sister Sue really wanted at all. Like last night, Brother Liam asked him to wait for Sister Sue to come out and watch her go home safely. Zack felt that Liam loved Sue, but didn't know how to express it. "Brother Liam, how about you soften up first this time?" "What?" Liam disdained: "What is she? She smiled apologetically to a group of old men, hung up on me, and asked me to apologize first?" Zack wanted to persuade again, but Liam rubbed his temples and said: "Wait, she will come to apologize on her own initiative tonight." "Remember to check your phone more often, don't miss any calls." Zack was helpless: "Okay." 7 Half a month passed. As I expected, Liam treated me with cold violence as always. Originally, I thought about breaking up with him and saying goodbye properly. It seems unnecessary at all. He won't look for me. The eight-year relationship ended so simply. Even though I was ready to leave, my heart couldn't help but ache. Actually, this was not the first time I wanted to break up. In the past eight years, I wanted to break up countless times. The longest time was a week, and the shortest was a few hours, and then I regretted it. I was like a fish living on Liam. Losing his nourishment, I felt like I was going to die immediately. However, this time, I felt an inexplicable sense of relief. The house was finally sold. I took a rose bath and almost fell asleep comfortably when the phone suddenly rang. It was Zack calling. "Sister Sue, Brother Liam asked you to come to [Night Heart] now." That was the private club Liam often went to. Unexpectedly, he would still look for me. I thought he had a new love and didn't want me anymore! I said lazily: "Not going, tell him I'm already asleep." Zack instantly looked like he had received a huge shock. "Sister Sue... stop joking. Brother Liam has been in a bad mood recently. If you do this again, I'm worried..." I didn't listen to his long-windedness and hung up directly. Five minutes later, the phone called again. "Sister Sue, I beg you, please come over, okay?" "Brother Liam said if you don't come, he will fire me." Zack's voice was trembling, feeling like he was about to cry. Liam was just like that, always venting his anger on others. Zack came from a poor family and had a sick mother to take care of. It wasn't easy for him to swallow his pride around Liam for so many years. After thinking about it, I decided to go there and make a clean break with him by the way. 8 As soon as I pushed the door open and entered, the originally lively private room quieted down, and everyone looked at me. Liam sat in the middle, with a young and tender girl in his arms. Except for that girl, I knew everyone else. They also knew about my relationship with Liam. A few rich second generations who didn't mind watching the fun greeted me. "Sister-in-law, you're here!" "Why don't you get away tactfully? Sister-in-law is here." The body of the girl in Liam's arms stiffened instantly. After scanning back and forth between me and Liam, she hesitated for a moment and was about to get up, but was pressed back into his arms by Liam. He took a sip of wine漫不经心ly, glanced at me and said: "Here?" "Don't you have a lot of works to sell?" "Here are all rich sponsors with nowhere to spend money. Pour them wine, smile, and you will definitely sell for a good price." Hearing this, except for Zack who was sweating profusely beside me, everyone's eyes were full of contempt and ridicule. It turned out he asked me to come just to humiliate me again. Worthy of being Liam, despicable, selfish. Always self-centered, never considering others' feelings. However, seeing me standing there in embarrassment for a long time, my eyes slightly red, Liam didn't seem satisfied enough and urged again. "What are you still standing there for?" "What's wrong with Sue? So aloof in front of me, but okay in front of outsiders?" I clenched my hands tightly, my nails digging deep into my flesh, but I didn't seem to feel the pain. After taking a deep breath, I went forward and poured wine for everyone. Liam stared at me sheepishly with a look of disdain. Ignoring his gaze, I held up a glass of wine and looked at everyone. "Actually, I came here today to say goodbye to everyone." "I'm leaving Haicheng soon, and I probably won't come back in the future." "I wish you all a bright future. See you around!" Everyone looked at Liam in shock. His face stiffened for a moment, but soon showed a disdainful smile. "Sue, don't you think it's childish and ridiculous to say such things?" "Will I soften my heart like this?" "Do you know you're almost thirty?" As he said that, he hugged the girl tighter in his arms, "Isn't this younger and prettier than you? What kind of woman can't I get?" I nodded with a sincere face. "Indeed, since you have a new love, I, the old one, should make room for her." "Let's break up!" "Wish you harmony and beauty." After drinking the wine in the glass in one gulp, I smiled shallowly: "Leaving first, everyone have fun." I turned and withdrew from the private room, closing the door thoughtfully. At this time, someone said: "Brother Liam, did you go too far this time?" "She won't really leave Haicheng and not come back, right?" Liam said nonchalantly: "Tch, she has a big temper recently, needs to be taught a lesson." "That's right. Everyone has seen how devoted Sue was to you in the past." Zack spoke weakly: "Brother Liam, Sister Sue doesn't seem to be acting out of pique this time. Just now she..." "Shut up! What do you know?" Liam said firmly: "She'll have to cry and beg me tonight. send a video as proof later." I smiled self-deprecatingly and strode away from the club. Originally wanted to leave in a few days. Returning to the villa that night, I couldn't suppress my temper at all and couldn't wait to change the flight ticket. Most of the luggage had been mailed home long ago. When leaving, it was nothing more than a small boarding case. So after leaving a note and two bank cards, I boarded the plane at three o'clock in the morning.
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